25 years later my father has been sober in my 40's now and the damage is plain to see happy hes sober but I have zero happy memories with him once sober he spent all his time in AA even to this day. Cant spend more then 10 minutes with his grand kids and hes ready to go. Only time he stayed longer was to accuse me of sexually abusing his daughter my sister when I was 11 which would have made her 4 and that's why she shoots coke in her veins and is pregnant with her second kid probably another drug dealer. Sorry shit is real here........ Point is we are with you king. We all have dark clouds, its who you can count on to get you through them.